There’s Just something keeping me from doing things. Something that’s stopping me. I’ve always been the late bloomer. With EVERYTHING. Anything grown up related I just CAN’T do! I”m so afraid of moving on, Getting better, Growing up. I’m afraid of messing up.
I don’t want to drive on the street. I don’t want to go on the wrong lane. Everyone watching me! Honking at me!
I don’t want to feel peoples anger towards me. It hurts too much.
I don’t like playing games, I’m afraid I wont understand it and people will get frustrated with me. so i don’t play.
I don’t want a job because I’m afraid it will take a long time for me to adjust and the employees will get annoyed.
I don’t want friends,
I’m afraid they will do what they did long ago,
What they did before…
I’m so tired of people.
So tired of other peoples thoughts of ME.
I want to run away
and maybe
live my own kind of life.
ideobybye 